now i feel that i never knew you even more. congrats, i know this is what you wanted for the longest time. you've got your own life and now you're living it up to the fullest. congrats. i feel so happy for you, no longer do it kill me. FREALZ well, it hasn't for the longest time. you've grown up well, and i've forgotten about those times already. last night, wow it kinda made me realize that somehow in someway, you're going to pop up randomly in my life whether it be just by coincidence or something. it's crazy how one year can change everything no? well when that day comes, i don't wanna react to it as much as i have in the past. it may be a few years till i get together and finally say the things i wanted or should've said. anywhos, i'm proud of you and i hope that never changes.

oh WOW looking back at the past just makes me realize how much i've grown up. i used to be so careless about everything and just wanted to have fun regardless of what i did or who i hurt. i wish i still had that. but now, it's all about tough talk and seriousness. i wanna go back to it all. i miss those time.

once again, home. and i have this sudden feeling occuring. seems like you're never there anymore. since what happened on the march break weekend, school isn't the same as it used to. we can't even chill, we don't even talk. and maybe it's my fault but yo, idk anymore. you've got your life, and i've got mine right? and i don't wanna say that certain people are interfering even though it seems like it is and it may be the case, but that's how i feel and it's hard to cope with all the changes high school has brought. ugh i needa relax.

how do you tell someone everything you wanna say when you can't even get the words to come out of your mouth. i hate this feeling.